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Eve

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She got the game ALL fucked up.....

I will be doing a response to this video.....

How to love.

I came across this on my tumblr and I had to share it......

Everyone in the apartment complex I lived in knew who Ugly was. Ugly was the resident tomcat.

Ugly loved three things in this world: fighting, eating garbage, and shall we say, love. The combination of these things combined with a life spent outside had their effect on Ugly.
To start with, he had only one eye, and where the other should have been was a gaping hole. He was also missing his ear on the same side, his left foot has appeared to have been badly broken at one time, and had healed at an unnatural angle, making him look like he was always turning the corner. His tail has long since been lost, leaving only the smallest stub, which he would constantly jerk and twitch. Ugly would have been a dark gray tabby striped-type, except for the sores covering his head, neck, even his shoulders with thick, yellowing scabs.
Every time someone saw Ugly there was the same reaction. “That’s one UGLY cat!!”
All the children were warned not to touch him, the adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down, squirted him when he tried to come in their homes, or shut his paws in the door when he would not leave.
Ugly always had the same reaction. If you turned the hose on him, he would stand there, getting soaked until you gave up and quit. If you threw things at him, he would curl his lanky body around feet in forgiveness. Whenever he spied children, he would come running meowing frantically and bump his head against their hands, begging for their love. If you ever picked him up he would immediately begin suckling on your shirt, earrings, whatever he could find.
One day Ugly shared his love with the neighbors huskies. They did not respond kindly, and Ugly was badly mauled. From my apartment I could hear his screams, and I tried to rush to his aid. By the time I got to where he was laying, it was apparent Ugly’s sad life was almost at an end.
Ugly lay in a wet circle, his back legs and lower back twisted grossly out of shape, a gaping tear in the white strip of fur that ran down his front. As I picked him up and tried to carry him home I could hear him wheezing and gasping, and could feel him struggling. I must be hurting him terribly I thought.
Then I felt a familiar tugging, sucking sensation on my ear - Ugly, in so much pain, suffering and obviously dying was trying to suckle my ear. I pulled him closer to me, and he bumped the palm of my hand with his head, then he turned his one golden eye towards me, and I could hear the distinct sound of purring. Even in the greatest pain, that ugly battled-scarred cat was asking only for a little affection, perhaps some compassion.
At that moment I thought Ugly was the most beautiful, loving creature I had ever seen. Never once did he try to bite or scratch me, or even try to get away from me, or struggle in any way. Ugly just looked up at me completely trusting in me to relieve his pain.
Ugly died in my arms before I could get inside, but I sat and held him for a long time afterwards, thinking about how one scarred, deformed little stray could so alter my opinion about what it means to have true pureness of spirit, to love so totally and truly. Ugly taught me more about giving and compassion than a thousand books, lectures, or talk show specials ever could, and for that I will always be thankful. He had been scarred on the outside, but I was scarred on the inside, and it was time for me to move on and learn to love truly and deeply. To give my total to those I cared for.

Many people want to be richer, more successful, well liked, beautiful, but for me, I will always try to be Ugly.

Update..

Hey everyone. I haven't updated in a while because i've been in this funk...basically letting little stupid observations get to me and the creative juices weren't flowing, but after the birthday I had, muthaFUCK those observations AND that funk.  :-) Yes.......it was that great. :-D Anywho, I will be posting more now that i'm in a better mood, but not as much because i'll be busy with school and i'm also planning a much needed vacation. Hope everyone is great! :-)\

Thinking about you - Frank O.

"Do ya think about me still...do ya, do ya?......or do you not think so far ahead?..... cause i been thinking bout forever...."

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quick update

i have not abandoned you guys. UNfortunately I have a bunch of family issues to attend to. With the series of unfortunate events it has given me a lot of fuel to get deeper in my next few posts. so stay tuned....

-ki

Watch the throne Documentary.

It's an interesting thing seeing history being made.....



Kanye West & Jay-Z: Watch The Throne Documentary from introspective on Vimeo.

Otis - Jay-z x Kanye West

"Political refugee asylum can be purchased"

"Watch the Throne" is set to be released on August 2, 2011............after hearing Otis, I CAN'T WAIT.

Sensuality....by like-a-lilikoi

I came across this on my tumblr and it was like she painted a collage of words and my spirit was her paint palette. So beautiful.

My sensuality is something that I am proud of. It is a large element of who I am and it is how I’ve always been…. but that does not mean I blatantly exploit  myself nor does it take away from the fact that I am intelligent/respectable. Sensuality, in my opinion, contributes  to intelligence in ways that many people don’t recognize because they confuse sensuality and sexuality. Sensuality is about senses, it includes the realm of sex, but it does not exclude the importance of sensing one’s surroundings in every way possible. Without a strong feel for all the elements of life, I don’t believe I could function properly, so my sensuality contributes to my survival. When I think of sensuality; I think of a mermaid, I think of confidence, I think of powerful energy, I think of spirituality, I think of dreams (day dreams and night dreams), I think of personal wisdom, I think of head-held-high, I think of beauty, I think of unstoppable ideas, I think of unconventional beauty, I think of teaching through learning and learning through teaching, I think of culture, I think of pride. When I’m lookin’ at sensuality; I’m seeing sunshowers, I’m seeing night swimming, I’m seeing Frida Kahlo and her art, I’m seeing breasts, I’m seeing flawless flaws, I’m seeing flowers, I’m seeing circles, I’m seeing sunkissed skin, I’m seeing the line of a man’s bicep to his shoulder, I’m seeing deep purples and reds, I’m seeing smoke roll out the lips, I’m seeing ocean. When I hear sensuality, I hear brazilian music, I hear soulful voices, I hear a moving story, I hear Erykah Badu, I hear Adele, I hear deep laughter, I hear the sound of a plane take off, I hear the breeze, I hear the ocean kissing the shore, I hear soft moans. When I feel sensuality; I feel cool water going down my throat or enveloping my form, I feel my bare feet touching the grass, water, dirt, or sand, I feel my hair being brushed behind my ear, I feel my heart beating faster than usual, I feel tears of sorrow/joy (they can be one in the same if you understand them fully), I feel past/present/future, I feel happiness, I feel respected, I feel compassion and passion, I feel the color of NARS orgasm blush, I feel warmth, I feel irie, I feel creative, I feel….I feel like myself.

Credits: http://like-a-lilikoi.tumblr.com/

Happy independence day!

Get drunk and eat alot! :-)


-Kelz

I don't believe you, you need more imagination.

Have you ever had a guy approach you with conversation and/or game so wack you just looked at them like this:

I've arrived at an especially frustrating point in my life, kind of unique actually because I've never really come across people who feel this way. I'm at the point where I can fully acknowledge that all men aren't the same, but I just keep hearing and seeing the same shit in them and everything about them is screaming to me that they're all the same, but I just don't believe that they are. I'm at a point where five minutes of conversation with guys gives me a headache. No creativity, no allure, no underlying charm.........just pure, monotonous, repetitive game. I honestly feel like they don't even take the time to peak our interests and stimulate our minds anymore before attempting to penetrate us. I feel like some of my fellow vagina carriers have made it so easy and accessible to them that men don't feel like they need to try very hard any more and it's annoying to the women who are actually so much more than what you see. It's like being a woman has become synonymous with being able to be controlled emotionally with little effort  and it's so fucking irritating, I cannot even begin tell you. Seasons have passed and I have yet to come across a dude who actually spit some slick shit to me that would make me even consider giving it up to him.........or one who didn't ruin it for himself by speaking, because honestly we know when we first look at you whether or not we'd give it up to you (not how fast, how possible). The ones who catch my interest now are the ones who I rarely exchange any words with and it's to the point that i'm actually hesitant to talk to a guy I'm truly interested in because i'm honestly scared that he'll open his mouth and my interest will disappear faster than Evelyn Lozada's draws in front of an NFL player. It's to the point where I'll listen to some men speak, then mentally mark where they fucked up in their approach and I want to correct them so badly but I don't want them to see it as encouragement.

Update your software every once in a while, don't be runnin the same game you were runnin last year, not even the same game you were running two months ago. True players are rolling stones, ever changing and ever evolving into the guy who's attractive to the one you're trying to penetrate, and never vulnerable because repetitiveness is a vulnerability. If you're the kind of dude who goes around trying to bag every woman you're attracted to, in other words a man whore, at least do it properly. Be interesting and precise with your deception, take the time to notice little things about the person you're approaching. If she's basic you can usually tell right off back, if you see that in her then by all means approach her that way.....walk up to her and be like "Hey shawty, you lookin good tonight"....be sure to rape her with you're eyes while you're saying this, and if she smiles and engages you in conversation then proceed to plan what positions you're going to bend her basic ass into that very night, it'll be easy because she's basic. You cannot however approach an intelligent young lady that way. If your introduction is something she hears all the time, such as that line you used to bag basic Becky, then forget it because more than likely twelve other thirsty ass unimaginative dudes beat you to it. Little things women do, like they way we walk, the way we carry ourselves, they way we smile, they say a lot about us. Here's a little experiment for you: Watch a girl who you know is basic, preferably one you've smashed, look at the way she walks, the way she expresses herself, the way she communicates with her peers and even with you, watch her mannerisms. Next look at a girl who you know for a fact values herself, a girl who you'd never dare approach with your bullshit because you know she'd see right through it, but be sure to observe them when they don't know you're watching so you can see their genuine ways. I guarantee even the tiny differences you see will open your eyes.....learn those differences.

Social networks fuck your game up......seriously, like facebook and twitter are THE fucker uppers of deception. A basic ass player will tell on himself on Facebook so quick and not even realize he did or have himself told on and not even realize it. I've had instances where I was attracted to someone, then I added them on Facebook and my attraction to them just decreased with every unoriginal random rap lyric he posted, every douche baggish profile picture he put up, and every basic ass woman he hit and quit trying to get his attention. Men put red flags all over face book and don't even realize it, but I honestly don't fully  judge them until I hear them speak and nine times out of ten it usually goes right along with what their Facebook says. Don't put your life on social networks if you're trying to be deceptive and if you do, don't let the person you're trying to deceive into that part of your world.

I'm not saying that I have some superior intellect or some super natural gift that enables me to tell when i'm being lied to, I don't. When I was younger and less wise, I was basic and I fell for some of that shit. I honestly think back to some of the things I listened to and believed and some of the things I did because of me putting my trust in people who clearly didn't give a fuck about me and the things I had to offer besides my nani, and I honestly want to slap myself. But I learned, I forgave myself, I forgave them, and I became wiser. I observed my friends, acquaintances, even people I don't know go through those same hoops and more. I learned and quite frankly i'm bored with your repetitive shenanigans, so bored in fact that I almost wish I was young and stupid again, so at least my mind would be somewhat stimulated by the tedious shit that comes out of your mouth and no matter how many times I've heard it before, I could cling to the prospect that "this one said the same exact thing but he could be different".........that even sounds stupid but there once was a time when I would tell myself that and it would placate me. I know there's someone out there who will change my mind and hit me with some really good, genuine shit, I just haven't come across him yet.

I'll never straight up tell a guy my weaknesses (I do have some, too many actually) but I will tell you that it's intriguing to watch someone try to figure them out. It shows me that you have a genuine interest in me and even if you are just trying to get in my pants, at least you're really trying and not half assing it, it's less insulting..........you get a few brownie points for that, but not many.......we'll probably just end up being friends and i'll probably be calling you up when I want some head or something along those lines............................. Just kidding. :-D

Let me close with this quote a wise rapper named Tyga once tweeted and it stuck with me, for all the men who fuck through nations of women with disregard for their quality:

"You hurt the right one, and you'll be wrong all your life."




-Kelz

LMFAOOOO.

Boss.

Quality.

I came across this on my tumblr and I had to share it with you all. It touched my spirit and I hope it does the same for you.

Drake - Marvin's Room (Video)

Drake ~ Marvins Room (Official Video) from OctobersVeryOwn on Vimeo.

This video made me feel drunk....but I like it. One of the things i'll always respect about Drake's music is his honesty. 


His sophomore album titled "Take Care" is set to be released on Oct. 24th. Show support for truly good music.

My top 5 bad man top shotta movies.........

I'd like to introduce you all to the man in me. These are my top 5 bad ass movies, if I didn't say "bloodclatte" at least 3 times watching each of these movies, they wouldn't be on the list. Check them out, I promise you won't be disappointed.

#5: Saw 1,2, and 3.

I stopped at three because I couldn't take that shit anymore.


#4: The grudge:

Any movie that had me sleeping in my mom's room for over a month after I watched it deserves to be on this list.


#3: Scarface

I went years without watching this simply because I didn't really care to, but once I finally did, "Manolo, shoot that piece of shit" has become a part of my vocabulary. 


#2: IP Man

I actually discovered this gem at work, my co-workers are all guys except for one other female and our manager........that should explain things. This is a bad rass kung fu movie.


# 1: City of God and Shottas

I honestly couldn't choose. My number one was Shottas until I saw City of God and fell in love with Benny.......Biggs is still my boo though. You're not a shotta if you can't appreciate the truly gangsta shit that these movies contain. They're half the reason why I laugh at some of these pussies who all of a sudden grew some nuts when they got their first gun, but who's hands shake when real G's run up on them or the police start to sweat them. 

And there you have it. If you know any good top shotta movies that didn't make the list, e-mail them to me @ kchantal@tmo.blackberry.net.  

P.S.: The hills have eyes would have been on here if I had the stomach to get through the first ten minutes.

Kourtney Kardashian

I love this outfit...

Great look for the summer.

Fina-fxking-lly

Damn daddy.......

Jhene Aiko

I was sitting around browsing the internet and I stumbled across Jhene Aiko, an underground artist, whom I've never heard of before. I did a bit of research and checked out her free mixtape Sailing Souls. Clearly I'm a couple months late but it's new to me. So far I do enjoy. While she can't "SANG" she does have an angelic voice which reminds me of a Cassie or an early Aaliyah. My favorite so far are "Sailing Not Selling" featuring Mr. West, "Hoe" featuring Miguel (& Gucci Mane which I could definitelty live without his verse), and "Mr. Popular". Hope you enjoy.

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her body is the business.

**looking for a personal trainer now

untitled.

I have been heartbroken.

I have worked my ass off just to hand my last dime over to people I will never meet.

I have been in the middle of drama.

I have been accused of embarrassing things.

I have had my feelings hurt by "hating ass bitches".

I have gained weight. I have lost weight.

I have been abused. mentally & physically.

I have been taken for granted.

I have been called the worst names by my own mother and father.

I have been judgmental. I have been judged.

I have gotten drunk and did things I regretted the next morning.

I have been threatened. I have made threats.

I have struggled financially.

I have been on top of the world & I have fallen off.

I have taken a bad boyfriend back.

I have been the victim of domestic violence.

I have been violent.

I have been spiteful.

I have sinned. Repented. Then sinned again.

I have been insecure. I have been secure.

I have been through a lot (this list could be so long) and so has everyone else in the world. everyone has a story. Everyone has a struggle. Everyone has a feelings whether they show it or not. Everyone is a product of their environment in some shape or form. Having a little compassion, respect, and decency could change someones life for the better. They want us to not give a fuck and only care about money, bitches, and other materialistic bullshit and forget our sole purpose. God put us here for a reason and it is to embrace each other, learn from one another, and teach each other valuable life lessons. When you are alone in your room thinking about all your painful memories that have caused you to be miserable, depressed, and/or crying remember you are not alone. Learn to embrace your life lessons because YOU will accomplish LIFE!

"You can't appreciate your future if you don't appreciate your past" -me.

Compliments Gone Wrong..

James Fauntleroy is a grammy award winning songwriter with a lot of hit songs under his belt.

now apparently compliments are "subliminal disses" because...


After these tweets we can guess where it went. DRAMA!

My thing is social networking has gotten so bad that you cannot even compliment someone without it escualting or being mistaken as "underhanded comments". Twitter, Facebook, and other sites have become an outlet for everyday people and celebrities (so-called "role models") to display their childish behavior. The subliminal disses and shit talking has reached an all time high and must be STOPPED! If you are not going to spread knowledge or creative thoughts (like this blog) please delete your shit!

Ladies and Gentlemen: Text, Email, and other cyber forms of communication has no emotion. It leaves one to guess your emotion that is why almost all conversations should be discussed via talking (mouth conversation lol) seriously. Even Compliments.

hmmm... just realized its been a year and two months...rip to my twitter page long gone..i wish it was forgotten.

Novacane - Frank Ocean

New video from my husband the best artist in the world in my book.



"Novacane, baby, baby 
Novacane, baby I want you
Fuck me good, fuck me long, fuck me numb
Love me now, when I'm gone, love me none
Love me none, love me none, numb, numb, numb, numb......"




*sighs* Love him.

Instructional video.

Warning: This video contains explicit material and is not suitable for people under the age of 18 or sexually frustrated or deprived people. You have been warned.

Some might call it whorish.......



..............I call it art.

Fellas, don't say I never gave y'all nothin.

Ladies............don't say I never gave y'all nothin.

The Weeknd - Birds (Pt. 1)

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Uplifting words....

My bro Marc-lee wrote this and I found it so uplifting that I had to share it with you......

♥

How you doing, it’s just you, me and this hours on end ink pen caressing these

every lines.

Let me free my mind from this world and take my soul on a journey to a world some

wish to grind.

Like a lullaby, me being pleasured with old music playing in the background wishing my life’s favorite utopia would soon be passing by grabbing and sweeping me off my familiar grounds, into distinct worlds with places where love never runs dry.

Kill the buzz of pessimism helping my soul and spirit fly high. Sore me in non-polluted air that I can look down at a life full of pleasing trials which I can’t wait to try.

Create a trail of roads thru my imagination where I’ll send myself surfing into different destinations and exploring never ending positive interventions. 

Striving to sacrifice my present life styles to painting a getaway land easily accessed with just a thought of turmoil negativity. A world where the love I only wished to have existed is vivid and doesn’t go extinct. Like Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden, I and my loved one’s hearts are matched even.

Can you see it….

Soothing thoughts of the great life, blowing times that really don’t exist so there is no rush on life to be spent in heavenly sinless days. So for my heart, happiness will always persist.

I can't merely resist the thoughts of that special gift I wished life would give... My Own Special Utopia

This Is The Face....

... I make after I lose 2 million dollars betting on Miami Heat.

I truly dislike band wagoners (*cough Baby & Wayne)!

true shit

thats why I only worship God.

oh i disagree to an extent about the crazy part.

Find me this young man.....

I'm all for respecting your elders, but if that was me he would have gotten his ass whooped at 5:57. I'm surprised the young man lasted that long...........

Social Networking without the Internet...

this is the reality of social networking...pathetic isn't it?

luckily I know all of my facebook friends personally.

Lawd Jesus.

I'd kick Bishop Eddie Long in his jaw with these the first chance I got...........

Knowing How to Downgrade.

Boy meets girl. Girl has "swag". Boy likes girl. Girl likes boy. Girl likes his money more. Boy and Girl hook up and the rest is well...history.

Perfect example is the Kanye, Amber Rose, Wiz Khalifa story. Now I don't know the details because I am not friends with either party. One can only use common sense from the little details that have been publicly stated.

Amber, a stripper since the age of 15, met Kanye West at a video shoot (the video never premiered -_-). I can only imagine she was trying to get it how she lived because the stripper profession is a world in itself...very classless and disturbing. I mean what stripper doesn't want to be saved? Exactly. So Amber was put into the situation of being saved..she dropped her lesbo lover and got with Kanye's Workout Plan. Do I blame her..HELL FUCKING NO! He took her from Ramen Noodles to the finest cuisine in the world. He took her from your basic forver 21 garments (i do still like forever 21) to Gucci, Chanel, Prada, Tom Ford .. I mean the list could go on and on. She went from the hood of Philly to travelling the world....now do you own a passport? chances are unlikely. She completely upgraded and do I believe there was love there.. yes I do because money doesn't make you wet...I mean she was a stripper where money was in her face constantly...there had to be something more...maybe the dick? or the personality? who knows?

Now we all know the Kanye ship sailed..do you really think she wanted to go back to philly, shake her ass for 10 bucks, and hear the other freak bitches in the strip club talk shit because she got saved and "fucked it up"..HELL NO! She settled for the downgrade. Wiz Khalifa, an aspiring rapper who been out since 2007/2008 (that's when I first got put on to him), who was just a regular nigga who could rap (everyone can rap these days -_-). His Black and Yellow was a hit and the endorsements, radio play, and such took off..which means more bread! Now Amber being smart cuffed him quick...hmmm I wonder whats her secret? It cannot be the bald head so I'm gonna assume its the pussy and the sweet talk (ladies you have to know how to sweet talk..not text).

The moral is you have to know how to downgrade ladies. Will Wiz be as big as Kanye West? Never, nuh huh, not happening! But is he better then your local "drug dealer" in the club spending all his money on bottles, strippers, and freak hoes but doesn't own a house? HELL YES! Wiz has some pull, not nowhere near Kanyes but he owns a face card. He is still in the limelight which ultimately keeps Amber in the limelight. She will still get VIP, fans, magazine covers, Hosting Events...and if she is smart like I suspect she is saving all that money and spending his.. just in case she has to go back to Philly..which i doubt. Do I see wedding bells for them no because like many artists Wiz is just a fad and he will indeed fade...and by his raps I can tell he has not employed someone to look after his finances. So with that being said you have to downgrade smart and know when to get the fuck on. You can aim high after your last but the chances of that happening is slim to none. Don't get me wrong upgrading is easy but upgrading right after your Top A is kind of hard. I mean look at J.Lo she started with a waiter, then went to Diddy, then bounced to a backup dancer, then to Ben Affleck, now she's married to a mediocre celebrity, Marc Anthony. You cannot go from an IPhone to owning that blue Nokia (you know which one I'm referring to)..You want to go from an IPhone to a Blackberry and hopefully if you know how to play "The Game" go back to an Iphone.

Regardless your opinion of Amber Rose or your personal situation in the game..one thing you cannot say is "She's Dumb" because she isn't. She is still in the media and you are still hearing about her and that's the way she wants it. The game is dirty so if your going to play you better make your next move your best move cause you would hate to be the chick who walks by a punch of chicks whispering, "Remember when she used to be the shit..old news having hoe." I can only imagine that it would sting..HARD!

Drake - Marvin's Room

Musically, he never disappoints me...............ever.
Noah Shebib, you fuckin' legend you.


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Sexing & Fucking the Potential..

..there is a huge difference & they should be practiced at appropriate times only.

First: This topic is for the people who has someone "special" in their lives and are thinking about taking it home.

Whats the difference? Sexing involves the basic positions only. Examples: Missionary or Cowgirl. Fucking is all of the freaky stuff. Examples: 69, Reverse Cowgirl, Oral, etc. Now I for one do not have a three, six, or nine month rule. I believe when the time is right, its right! However, I have a sex and fuck rule. When you take it there for the first few times you should only have basic sex. I say this because you do not want to scare your potential away. You don't want to whip out your special tongue trick the first night because he will think "how many dudes she tongued like this?", especially if you do it right! The things I do in the bedroom are way better then when I first started sexing and this came from experience, trial and error, and coaching. No matter what your guy count is you don't want him thinking "man I can't wife her she might be a hoe", "she a freak", or any other foolish things they assume. You want him to view you as an angel, god gifts to man, the perfect girl, the one he wants to put a ring on (even if you don't want a ring) not the girl he really liked then fucked and never called again after THE first time. Now after the first few sex sessions (ranges from 3-10) you can now fuck ladies. I personally think you should ease into the freakiness. I personally did with my guy (we have been down for almost 6 years) and I was a virgin i.e. inexperienced. You can show him that he doesn't have to go anywhere when it comes to the sex department and lets be honest that is one of the most important parts of a relationship after trust and honesty/communication. After you guys are comfortable and been seeing each other for a while you should discuss new things you want to try whether its anal, beads, dildos, or whatever suits you to build a healthy sex life. Sex is a relationship in itself and it can go right or terribly wrong. We already know what happens when it goes wrong.. you beefing with big booty kesha down the street with the 3 kids who can suck a mean dick! Do not be shy and make your guy feel comfortable so it will not be one of those taboo situations.

P.S. we have all had our slip ups (maybe) so this is your time to make it right and keep that potential :)

Ri Ri got dat Bella Swan........

.............obviously.

Breaking dawn........damn Edward.

I hear twilight nerds screaming all over the world right now, or maybe it's just me. The official soft porn flick trailer for the fourth movie in the twilight series is out and can you say sex-u-al? Giiirrrrlll, ask me what I saw after Edward broke the headboard..........not a damn thing. Bella must have that wet wet tight tight for him to pull that shit off, I see you girl.  I'm so excited to see this movie because I am an avid supporter of the books and I actually love the movies too.....even though I like the books better. The movie will be in theaters on November 18th, please go check it out, you will not be sorry. :-)

We don't believe you Kimberly....you need more people.

I honestly didn't even want to do this post because it's so negative and I didn't want to bring that shit here, but I had to say this because Kim is so ridiculous. I just give my opinions on things and that's just what it is, my opinion, so don't get all butt hurt about what I say.


Unless you've been living under a rock for the past few weeks, you've more than likely heard that Kim Kardashian is engaged. I'm honestly not trying to be a bitch about things, but come. the. fuck. on. There are times when I dislike Kim Kardashian, it intensifies then mellows then intensifies again then....you get the picture. Honestly, I don't see them making it to the wedding and if they do, I give it about a year.....actually throw in another year because dat ass..........damn. I think in the back of Kim's mind, she knows this is a mistake, but her love of attention and her jealousy of Khloe's marriage and Kourtney's new little family refuses to let her see reason. I can tell just from watching the previews of Keeping up with the Kardashians that homie is a fluke........but it'll be a cold day in hell when Kim learns that fame isn't her friend. Then again, I could be wrong.......maybe Kim is just a nice, sweet, innocent woman looking for love........ -___- right......oh but she will learn..........she will learn.

If in fact she is just doing this for money, I say get it girl *finger snaps*......hustle the industry just like they hustled you.

The importance of being earnest........like Kid Cudi.

"Im reading this write up in Ebony on me and i just cant tell if its love or hate. Hmmm, my brain is warming up to decide if i should diss them or ignore it as ignorance. I guess ill just say this. Dear Ebony, i wouldve been fine off your lil list. Next time u wanna write about me, i guess dont! Id prefer that when my mom, a true fan of your magazine picks up an issue, she doesnt have to read some wack ass write up about her sons music, disrespecting his art one minute and then tryna redeem yourselves with good comments all in the same paragraph. Show love all the way or dont mention me. I know you have to cause im someone whos hard to ignore in this business but like i said, if this is the type of write im going to get from a magazine thats suppose to praise African Americans who do amazing things, i dont wanna be involved or a part of it. MAYBE you should take advice from the song MAYBE you hate so much, maybe you need not worry bout me!" 
- via Cudlife





I have alot of respect for honest artists. It's difficult to stay honest in the entertainment business, with the spotlight on you and so many people watching and waiting for you to fuck up, that shit takes courage. So many people start out true to their feelings then get caught up in that whole hollywood bullshit (i.e. Wiz Khalifa.......yes, Rolling Papers was some old label influenced bullshit) and they let that influence not only their music, but also their soul and I dislike that shit .I love Kid Cudi even more for saying what he said because that shit is the truth. You tell em baby and keep telling them...............bitches.



Credits: Cudlife.tumblr.com (Kid Cudi's personal tumblr)

Man down - Rihanna

Girl you is so fine....
You damn sho is one of a kind....
You inspired me to find...
That ratchet ass line in my mind....

Happy 85th b-day Marilyn

Norma Jeane baby, we miss you, we need more like you because these bitches just don't get it.

Marilyn Monroe

One of the baddest women in history, gone but never forgotten.......ever.

Please, no story telling to others......

My topic for today is kissing and telling. First of all, I want all my potential dating prospects to know that the FASTEST way to get me to drop you is kissing and telling, I absolutely HATE that shit. This is also one of the fastest ways to separate the boys from the men. I grew up around nothing but boys, there might have been sprinkles of girls in my life now and then, but up until I came to america I was friends with mostly boys. One of the wisest things i've ever done in life is to have older male friends at a young age. Oh you thought I kept little boy friends? LMFAO, no silly. I always hated boys my age because after hearing real shit from grown men the ones my age seem like such idiots to me and that is something that still happens to this day. I despise a lot of guys my age because I don't know what happened to my generation but let's just say these little boys are far too easily influenced in my opinion........but that is another story for another time.

I remember what made me realize the true consequences of kissing and telling. I was in the 9th grade and the love bug bit me in the ass............hard. I can honestly say that to this day i've never felt anything close to what I felt for......let's call him Jim (I don't like to name drop). Me and him were going out and we made out(shut up, I was 14) and someone else who was friends with us and who was there when it happened came back to school and told everybody, Jim thought it was me and straight ignored me for months, mind you I was head over heels for this guys so it really hurt me and it's something I still remember. After I had learned (from someone else) why he was mad at me, I didn't try to tell him the truth.......I ignored his ass right back. It's crazy because I still do that shit to this day and I've become quite good at it, sometimes it's almost like they're really invisible. I was pissed because I learned two things at the tender age of 14, 1) guys HATE it when the ones they're with kiss and tell and 2) guys are real idiots. Even though I didn't do it, the very insinuation that I did it was enough for him to go from liking me to utterly disliking me and at that age that shit seemed really crazy to me and I didn't understand it, but now I understand why he was so pissed. You see, i've had it done to me and to this day, I can't even really look the guy's picture on facebook who kissed and told without hoping that he steps on a land mine. Cruel, vindictive? I know right, but it's the truth......that's how much I dislike it.

First of all, if me and you are doing whatever we're doing, it's OUR BUSINESS. Why do other people have to know what we did? What, you think that by telling everyone it will enlarge your dick or something? If God didn't bless you with it then bragging to everybody about what we did will do nothing to help you sweety. Be a man and keep your fucking mouth shut. I was pissed that he told what we did, and I was even more pissed because he said my name and then the story was transformed into this huge ass lie by the time it got back to me(like telephone, that game we used to play in kindergarten) and i'm like, you're such a bitch. I expect things like that from women but when men do it, it throws me off and honestly it disappoints me. I hate when men act like they have a vagina.

When women do it, it's expected but it's still not acceptable. Don't put all your business out on front street and get all surprised when those same bitches throw that shit back in your face. There was a time when I had like 4 or five close friends that I told things like that to, let's just say that was another lesson that life taught me. I thought it was ok because these were girls I called best friends and I wasn't telling everybody, but honey when you tell your business to a bitch you might as well be telling everybody. Now, there are two people who really know the explicit details of my sex life and that's Valerie(my best friend, and there are a lot of things that I don't tell even her) and the person i'm fuc..........being intimate with.

When we're young we do stupid things and I am no exception. What I can say is that I walked out of those situations with a HUGE lesson learned and a reinforced dislike for anyone who kisses and tells. Men, please be a man about your shit and keep your mouth shut, and if you can't suppress the bitch in you enough not to tell everybody please keep these poor ladies' names out of your sordid sex tales , and women please don't go telling people your business, it's like  you're giving them the tools to destroy your reputation.

Tuxedo FAB!

She makes it look so simple and fierce!

Thanks Bitch But I Didn't Want Your Opinion..

My public service annoucement for today is:

I Do Not Want Your Opinion Unless I Ask

My life is the way it is because I chose it to be this way. A lot of people cannot except this..so they blame others and come up with excuses like their childhood, ex, etc).. but I can. I had a child because I chose to have sex unprotected. I have my own apartment because I chose a responsible boyfriend who happens to have a responsible girlfriend. I pay for premium gas because I wanted a foreign car...I could go on and on. The moral is that none of my decisions had anything to do with YOU! I dont give a fuck about your opinion and whoever else your giving "friendly" advice to probably doesn't care either so heres a tip...SHUT YOUR MOUTH. People will only learn and become better is through trial and error. If people took everyones advice we (the world) would not have accomplished so much. So the next time your giving advice and it is not asked for please rethink that decision!

P.S. Have you ever gotten free advice from someone about something that they clearly couldn't get right? (example: men) I thought so.

Drake - Dreams money can buy.

"....and lately I do bitches the meanest, tell em' I love em and I don't mean it."

Di pum pum chart....

I came across this a long time ago on my tumblr. I honestly thought all vaginas looked the same like mine until I started watching porn. Which one are you ladies? I'm a number.......*gets distracted my something cool*.

If you are easily offended part 2......

First off let me start by saying that I never thought or think that I was better then anyone because I have fairer skin. I have never once looked down on anyone because I have long hair nor have I seen beauty as a color. Want to know why? Because we are all black.

VALIDATION

We as a people look for others to validate us. We let the media tell us what we should wear and when our flats are in season and when they are out. We let the media tell us we need C cup titties and a Jennifer Lopez ass to be sexy. We let the number of guys who try to holla tell us if we are pretty are not. So when does it stop? Truth is it may never but I have always been told never say never so I'll give a more optimistic response by saying IF WE WANT CHANGE WE MUST LIVE BY IT! It starts with accepting yourself and truly loving yourself. Give yourself a hug and look in the mirror and tell yourself "I am Beautiful" because you are! Everyone has something special. Whether its your voice, hands, feet, smile, eyes, confidence, or the way your hair curls when its humid. My point is no we do not all look alike and we never will so accept it.

Darker girls think that the color issue only applies to them and that they are the victims. Boo hoo cry me a river because thats a bold face lie. WE, THE BLACK RACE, ARE ALL VICTIMS. Up until I got to highschool I attended all black schools and I was always one of the fairest and I dealt with my share of teasing. Girls teased me calling me casper, Micheal Jackson, or labeled me a hoe and I was still very much a virgin. So what if the boys liked me? I was not thinking about them..I just wanted friends and a social life. Girls (even some light skin) wanted to fight me because I had really long hair and I thought how stupid are they? Now I look back and think they were very ignorant because it was pure jealousy and self hate. I feel bad that their mothers didn't tell them "you are beautiful" or "your skin is to die for" because my mother did. My mother, grandmother, and aunts told me no matter what people said I was beautiful so I never let the teasing or fights get to me. I never let someone's opinion define me. I know I am beautiful, strong, smart, a great mother, an okay cook and a little pudgy (I seriously have to lose a few lbs). One thing I know for certain is I am not a modern day slave! The black community has so many modern day slaves its pathetic. From those stuck on the dark versus light issue to the men impregnating our women and leaving them to be single mothers (different story for different day). Some of you are so stuck in that mentality that you hate to see a lighter skin girl and for what? Because some thug wanna be cheated on you with a light skin girl. It's his loss not yours. I mean seriously would you really want to marry and make a future with a slave? dont worry I'll wait. I mean sure everyone has preferences and sure you watch videos and only see light skin or spanish women in the videos...but you are a part of the problem. Lil Wayne is clearly color struck by anything red and YOU still go out buy his cds, go to his concerts, and scream that his not attractive ass "could get it". Then Lil wayne takes your hard earned dollar and tricks it off on a red chick and his 182 baby mothers. If we want change we must simply live by it, not complain and tell our sob stories when we contribute to the problem. Loving yourself is your key to happiness. So what if you dont have long hair? Either you can gracefully embrace your hair or go to the beauty supply and buy some indian remy. So what if your not the same shade as Beyonce? Exfoliate your skin, moisturize (spf) and smile! Remember CONFIDENCE makes a women sexy not her color!

If you do not get anything from either post please take with you this: If you let the color of your skin control your life then sweety you are not living.

-Kierra

If you are easily offended..........

First of all, I would like to make it clear that this is not a post bashing light-skinned people or anyone for that matter. We were all created equally, it's the things we believe that make us what we become.

Now that that's out of the way........down to business.

I can identify with this video in the sense that I do go through some of what they're talking about, but as far as me ever wanting to change my skin color, i'm happy to say that as long as I can remember i've never wanted to do that, i've never wanted to change my skin. Yea, when I was younger and didn't know any better I would get sad because some people wouldn't accept/like me and found me unattractive because of my skin color, but as I grew up and learned why some people think like that the less I gave a fuck about their opinion because to me, they're just simple minded. I actually pity them because they've been brainwashed and some of them don't even know it. Take this however the fuck you want to, but white people are some of the most ingenious and manipulative motherfuckers on this planet. I'm talking about they fucking manipulate entire races and we just sit back and let them, and when it comes to them manipulating us into thinking that the physical traits that are unique to us are ugly and unworthy those motherfuckers are running true to form............and so are we because once again we believe that shit is ok until it really starts fucking with us. Most of the white people i've met, especially living in georgia, have this attitude like they're superior to every other race especially blacks and that's the bullshit they feed to us via the media. We sit here and let them tell us that our people, OUR PEOPLE are physically unattractive unless we have different color eyes or silky straight hair, or any of the physical traits that are unique to THEIR race. I've seen black people put down the same physical features that THEY HAVE. I've seen black men and women refuse to have partners within the race THEY ARE because they feel like that race is unworthy........What kind of bullshit is that? But why do we do it? Because television, magazines, internet, tells us that we need to look more white to be considered beautiful, we are being manipulated by them and some of us don't even realize.  If this sounds like ignorance to you, ask yourself, who runs the media? what the fuck does the media say about people who are darker? what are these young men and women being taught about darker skin tones by the things they say on television and these so called "voices of the future"? "Beautiful black woman I bet that bitch look better red" Really Wayne? I'm not a racist person and i'm not hating on light-skinned people or anyone for that matter,  i'm just speaking on the shit i've noticed since I came to america. I'm being so real right now because I know yall expect me to say some shit like beauty is within you and all that morally correct bullshit but there are people that are ugly and physically unattractive to me and your skin tone has nothing to fucking do with it. There are ugly white people, black people, indian people, hispanics, asians, and so on and so forth. No entire fucking race escaped without some of the members getting beat with the ugly stick. Kierra, the other co-founder of dopeXchange is one of the most beautiful young women I know, has nothing to do with the fact that she's light-skinned. Tiny is one of the ugliest women i've ever seen, has nothing to do with the fact that she's light skinned. Naomi Campbell is one of the sorriest excuses for a human being i've ever seen, has nothing to do with the fact that she's dark-skinned, and I am one of the most beautiful people to myself and I don't condemn myself because of my dark skin tone. Those women in that video can sit there and let people fill their heads up with all this bullshit if they want to but I value myself far too much to ever let someone tell me that my silky soft dark skin isn't beautiful, bitch cuz I know it is. Honestly, I don't think shit will ever change because that mentality is so much apart of us and it is being fed to us every day, but if what I just wrote doesn't at least make you think about your place in the world as a person and who decides it, then there is nothing more I can really do for you.

-Kelly